This is going to sound strange, but I was wondering if it's possible to forget a language filled with negative associations, or at least banish it as much as possible from the brain.
Basically, I moved to Italy from Romania with my parents when I was very young, about 20 years ago; I attended all years of school and college in Italy and I learnt to speak it fluently since a child, trying to integrate with the people, so much so that I don't even have an accent anymore, and people nowadays don't realise I am a foreigner unless I tell them (but I know that is not wise in general). This is where the trouble starts: Italians have not been quite the welcoming kind to me, and I was expected to integrate and go unnoticed while at the same time being reminded all the time that I was in fact not welcome and would always be an outsider... Not to dwell too much on it but let's say all this time spent hiding has left a mark, and even the language reminds me of it.
After college I moved back to Romania, and for the first time in a very long time I felt at ease. I didn't even acknowledge how burdened I was. I never told anyone here this, and I am not planning on doing so, I want it all to fade away. Obviously I went zero contact with Italian, no music/movie/anything, banishing thoughts in Italian whenever I have them (because of the studying in Italian),but I was wondering if I'll ever be able to forget it or if not at least make it so thoughts in it don't randomly pop in my head.
Ok, this was longer than expected, sorry for the rant.
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