Hi everyone!
For a little bit more than half a year now I live in the country of my target language. I went to one basic language school (was doing SFI in Sweden) and after a successful final exam, I can continue my studies at a higher level.
Problem is that I feel like I don't deserve it. When it comes to the triangle of reading, listening and writing (in school) I feel like I'm doing great, but the speaking part is absolutely awful.
I had a change in my living situation recently and I was hoping that it can help with my speaking skills, but I feel like it can't help, because I have non-existent skills. I feel like that when I listen to people, my mind is slowly going blank and I don't understand anything, nor can I say anything.
Even when I manage to say something, I sound like a kid from elementary school, not like someone who has a basic exam or understanding in a language. Truth to be told, I'm not a big speaker anyway, I am/was always the quiet person, but this feeling with the language makes me even quieter.
How people speak in real life vs. in school is very different and it also makes me self-conscious when someone asks a question and I don't understand it immediately. Even if I know how to answer it, the fact that I have to ask people to repeat themselves makes me want to run away. I'm afraid I make them angry, especially the family I live with.
The point is that I feel so disappointed with myself that it completely takes away my will to study. I know I have to be disciplined and push through, but currently I don't even know what part of the language would be the best to practice with to develop my speaking skills further. Listening? Build more vocabulary? Should I read more? I just started to feel lost.
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